Pt 2 of 'Fucking amazing; Amazing fucking'

So, that week was about spinning, keeping up the revs on the bike, not so much concentrating on the distance, as it seems that I am able to get back into that ... Bit concerned at the moment that I am not doing it enough ... But, what am I really to do? Must continue to recognise that I am recovering from the fractured clavicle, and just pace myself ... However, at the back of my mind is the recognition that there are other waves/tsunamis approaching, and that I must be prepared for them.
Fist stop is GC100, but then? Plan for the future? Laos in '11? Burning Man in '12? Grafton-Inverell? Melbourne-Warnoobool? (actually, that is spelt wrong ...) These are big considerations, require much preparation, changes to ways of life ... and then there is this 'relationship' thing that is a part of all of these plans ... OMFG, she is wonderful ... Of course, part of all of this is the requirement to concentrate on other things, like jobs, roof, food ... All very well understanding that they will take care of themselves, but I am suspecting that a little effort will be repaid in spades, as the saying goes ...
Anyway, fuck it ... Life, hey? ATO refund arrived, but took it's bloody time, I tell you - Centrelink apparently got their money nearly four (4) weeks ago ... Was such a spin out of a day-She sends me a text which I 'misread' as containing 50 kisses, ATO $ at bank, customers respond +ve to overtures-even the ones that I have NO idea what I am doing, home to a night of no contact, and instead spend nearly three (3) hours chatting, laughing, flirting, having fun ... and she says her life is great? Such fun, as Laughner says ...
The most fun thing is that she says (or sends me) things that resonate with me, make me think about things, so maybe there is something to this notion of mirroring, where u look for +ve, be +ve and you will see/be +ve ... Maybe
We had a team meeting yesterday, and Chris was particularly noticeable by his absence, late arrival, and then I overheard him describing it in the most -ve terms, as an onerous duty, to be suffered through, at best ... So sad, yet so true of him that he has this facade of glitter and gloam, which is so offset by his virtual gloom, or sadness ... Might have to try talking to him again ... Although I do wonder WHY!!! Bloody M, and her inspiring example - grr!!! Did I mention that she is wonderful?
Anyway, this is why the world is a better place, through the efforts of others (+ me) striving to help others, in every way, every day, ole!!!
Yeah, as Gough, would say, it is time. Time to finish. Time to move on. Time to let go. Time to embrace the wonderfulness ...

p.s. have always wondered about taking laptop on bus, keep typing, carry on like I just don't care, so let's do it ... ;)
So, here we are, light beaming in through windows, which I must confess is 1 particular concern I have about 'Silver Rocket' but fuck it - all about balance! Can see why certain ppl (e.g. JimE) are quite enraptured with the idea of netbooks and their portability, such as when travelling. Looking around I can see ppl playing with their iPhones - saw a bloke yesterday playing poker, in fact - but for me, such devices are too passive. What I wanted was something like the iPad, but more interactive, more capable of interacting through word and text, to be able to add your own comments, such as these. To be able to process information more clearly, to be able to run other programs, create my own realities, which is why I am kind of looking forward to the ePad ... Pity really, I would like to have another Apple, but must be pragmatic about the realities of commercial constraints, take the $ to where they are best utilised ... So we shall see, we shall see ... But the new Nano looks divine But does it fit in with the commercial requirements of my future? Pity I can no longer elicit Xmas gifts from family :( lol
Wow, this IS kind of cool, typing away on keyboard, whilst travelling/commuting along on bus ... says he as bus turns corner, leading to sun to shine directly onto screen, and all text to disappear ... Also shows how dirty/dusty it is all becoming ... grr ... Wonder if what Deno said about ppl not really appreciating you going OTT cleaning there place could be true enough, or just an excuse for me to give up? Certainly do feel that I have done enough around the place to justify giving up - see earlier comments ... So maybe best attitude will be just to maintain the clean spaces, not go OTT on the rest? We shall see, we shall see ...
Actually, I may get off next stop, look at USB stix for JimE ...
Gawd, what is going on??? Just went to bank to get some more $ and took the full $250.00 in $5 notes ... My only response to the question of why was to respond that it made me feel rich ... Which it does, but originally had did that so that my $50/week spending money would feel like it was lasting longer, and I don't need to do that so much these days ... Ah, fuck it ... Was SO funny in BOQ branch-odd interactions between customers and tellers, to watch the passive-aggressive posturings of customers, that I walked out thinking how good is my life! All this and so, so much more is mine, life lies before, awaiting for me (finally) to pay attention, to do what needs to be done? To play the game, sow the fields, reap the rewards, to enjoy the benefits of living, loving, to enjoy and be enjoyed ...
What a weirdo I am ... cute, but weird is possibly more apt, hey?
What say this day is about the opportunity to help others, to engage with others, and make my life better by making their's better?
Or is that too self serving???

Now comes the next challenge - seeing if I can upload this whilst on the bus ... ;)