Spare tit@christening

"You old sad and lonely self aggranising arrogant cunt!
What makes you think that anyone really cares about what you say, about those 'cute' little quotes you come out with?
The way that you live your life, away from all reponsibility and interaction, is it any wonder that nobody stays with you for very long?
That way that you push people away, making them jump through ever increasingly tighter hoops, to prove their 'love' for you.
The air of desperation about you is like a perfume that is designed to attract other sad and lonely losers like you is it?
Do you think that the 'tragedies' of your life make you special, give you the 'right' to behave so irresponsibly?
And you then wonder why nobody wants to be with you?
Instead of worrying about what value people bring to your miserable existence, why not focus upon the reality of questioning what value you bring to theirs!
Do you really think that just because you are so precious and wonderful everyone else will just fall at your feet, worshipping the very air that you breathe?
And then if for some bizarre reason they don't there must be something wrong with them? Right?
What chance does someone else have in your tight little enclosed world when you can't let go of your cycle of depression and self doubt?
Are you really so filled with self pity that you can't accept the positive noises that somebody else makes about you??
The intensity that you pour into not getting your way could be better spent focussing on working together.
What chance does somebody else have with you when you do not even rate your own chance, or value yourself, particularly highly?
Is it that you have set yourself such a low standard that when somebody exceeds those expectations you are unable to respond?
Is it because you are not in control, that your limits are breached, that you do not know what to do, or how to act?
Are you so bereft of social skills that you are unable to act accordingly once your repotoire is emptied?
There are other ways of acting, you know, just because you have never tried them ...
If you keep telling people how bad and worthless you are, not accepting their admonishments as to your value, then is it any wonder that they eventually give up, accept what you are saying?
If you do not believe in yourself, your value to others, why should they?
It is easy enough to blame others for not recognising how wonderful you are, but what if you are not really?
Just because you are unable to accept conclusions and closure!
Maybe you need to try finishing something you started, instead of shying away from the pain of exposure?
Were you act with integrity, or 'morally', in a social situation, would your life be so much worse?
Why do you drink so much? Some drink to forget, some to remember what they have forgotten, but what about you?
There is an emptiness about you, a void that you want somebody else to fill, a brokenness about you that somebody else is to repair? But why would/should they?
Are you so happy to wallow in your misery that you would forsake the soothing of another?
Have you so given up on the world that repitition bores you?
Are you so unable to enjoy the pleasure of another?
Why do you need to find value in the judgement of another, yet are so devastated at their judgement finding you wanting?
Especially when you give them no other option to choose.
Why are you so happy to take the space that is available to you, yet are so reluctant to allow your own to be 'invaded' - which is how you think of it!
If there was a reward in heaven for self centredness would Peter still be standing by the doorway to greet you?
Is this sense of self destruction because you hate your self so much? Or just a recognition of the detrimental effect you have on others around you?
What is this language that you speak of 'how to live'? Is it deliberately obtuse, or do you just genuinely have no real idea?
You are so like flotsam in the stream of life, waiting for something else to sweep you away, so unable to hold onto what is near and dear.
Smile, be happy, on the inside, and stop pretending that all is good when it is not. A friend recognises that you are not smiling on the inside when you are smiling on the outside!"
Having made those pronouncements, the room then proceeded to empty ...