Well, that did not work too well, did it???
Oh well, points for trying though :) Ha, bloody ha! Wonder if the girls had any sense of premonition - the female intuition, as it were … Or maybe the hesitancy in departing was more visceral, more emotive in basis? Nice position to be in, I suppose, having 2 (3?) girls pleased to see me, to want me to be part of their lives, with all of the inherent intricacies … Not that I can see myself taking advantage of such … although, maybe I should … maybe that is what 'life' is all about, sharing/caring, giving and taking, allowing/being allowed mistakes, and learning from them … In any case, it is a life … And one that, it would seem, I am not welcome to do with as I please. Not one that I am able to stop the existence of, or at least not be directly responsible for its cessation … Leaving one to fear that the anticipation, or even 'expectation', of doing 'something' continues unabated … Hence the remaining question: What is one to do? Much prefer the other one: How am I to live? :) At least with that one I had a chance to live by example …
Still do wonder just what went on there last night … so much prep and so little outcome!!! Amazing amount and content of vomit! And the colour! :o
Still here, wondering what to do, how to do it. Although there are some options - staying with bro, parents, girls - still I feel that there should be something more to do? Sitting at Cosmo's much is still the same, the self-important people rushing past the lonely and alone strange people. Oddly enough these things do not just resolve themselves simply or easily(!), and yet I do not want such complexity to override any sense of contentment or ableness.
Discovered that the last packet I had has disappeared - so much for that sustaining dream …
Here in Fortitude Valley there is always an ongoing parade of the different and the devoted divas to desire, where function is often subservient to flavour. Only here could an Asian woman walk out of the back of a Japanese restaurant and go to McDonalds for dinner … Only here, by virtue of their addiction, would an office worker sit down and share some time/space with the derelict, smoking a cigarette … Yet even here the people are struggling to find a place for themselves that causes least distress, and expends the least effort …
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